02.44

what am i waiting for?

why i have to cry?

life is sucks

full oh bullshit,full of lies

everyone wearing a mask

try to mess up other people lives

what am i waiting for?

seems i waiting for nothing, nothing and nothing

nothing turn into sadness

nothing turn into sorrows

nothing turn into madness

what am i waiting for?

get trap in this shit

like play maze

hard to find the way out

what am i waiting for?

love is bullshit, love is sucks

it's all about pain, angry, selfish, arrogant, ego.

so what am i waiting for?

you can make your decision whether you want to stay with this all shit or leave it and move on

21.10.20.02.11

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking

nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming

I'm yelling over her, she's yelling over me and neither of us are listening

so both us mad at for nothing.

i know sometimes it's gonna rain, but can we make up now?

cause i can't sleep through the pain

i don't want you to go to bed mad at me and neither me.

06.10.10.12.32am

05.10.10

My shattered dreams and broken heart are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do but have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie, I guess I’m down to my last cry


I was here, you were there, guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you,I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do but have one last cry

I’m gonna dry my eyes right after I had my one last cry

-Brian McKnight-

05.10.10.03.15am

There are times when you make me laugh

there are times when you drive me mad, though many times you made me cry.

Maybe there's something you don't understand.

I'm at your feet, waiting for you....

there are times when i believe in you

there are times when i feel close to you

there are times I think that i'm yours, though many times i feel unsure

I'll always be around you, keep my eyes on you

I won't let you run even there are times when the cold in your eyes make me freeze for a moment.

there are times when i feel so down when you show your cold face

there are times when i feel so dumb when i made you mad

there are times i think I must curse myself when i made you mad

to be continue...

-MeL-

01.10.10

Be brave even i'm not

Be a cheerful girl even I'm not in that mood

Be a bright and a star for her whenever it is

Be patient to show her that I have a good to her

Be patient to show her that I'm not a childish

Be relax babe even I've got a burn

Be patient to show her that I'm fighting with this jealousy

(jealousy is a hell, why there must be a jealousy in this world?? I curse you jealousy)

Be cool even there's something bothering me

Be patient so there will be no conflict

Be patient to show her that I really love her and yes I do !!!!

What is patient? and what is love?

it could be a question?

sometimes at night, I start thinking of you and then ask my self , why??

why do I love you? I think and smile

the warmth of your touch, the way you care,

the way you kiss me fills me with desire and how you hold me with warmth of blazing fire.

the way your eyes shine when you look at me.

By love I learning much much much more.

Love must be honest rite?

-MeL-